花事了

人生是一場不斷重複的鬧劇,荒謬得來空洞無聊 Continue reading

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太陽和魚

如果有一個世界混濁的不像話,原諒我飛,曾經眷戀太陽。你是我的太陽,一碰就碎的太陽。 Continue reading

這天

我很喜歡這首歌。哈,尤其是“夠痛快了嗎?  我知道啊  躲在你利刃之內  驕傲的自卑作祟”。

的確,總是有這樣的人,最難過的是,他們常常是身邊所謂的朋友。無論如何,都會過去的。

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只是经过

給那年的自己,也給那年的你…

只是經過
作詞:梁文福 作曲:梁文福 編曲:許寰梁 演唱:許南盛

究竟是不是錯 已經說得太多
兩個人的迷惑只是一種結果
關于虧欠的話 已經不想再說

從來沒有想過 自己可以灑脫
用一句承諾將我未來深鎖
如果你也想過 並未失去太多
你在乎的是感情並不是我

當我終于擁有你的笑容的時候
悲哀突然寄宿在我心頭
偷將你的名字 藏在口袋浬頭
讓它在夜浬開啟遺忘的夢

當我就要貼近你的悲歡的時候
發現心情卻是經已遠走
一個人的腳步 我不會太匆促
每一步都在敲著我的孤獨

收拾我的故事 披上我的沉默
愛情的背影原來如此淡漠
走向日升日落 走向我的寂寞
這一次不是停泊只是經過

The First Cut is the Deepest

I tried so hard and it’s working. Please don’t let him spoil it all again. He’s not the first but he certainly cut it deeper then anyone else had. I loved him in a way I would never love anyone again. The euphoria we get after spending time together, walking for hours eschewing transport, talking till 5am on the phone. Just looking at each other sent shivers down my spine and I know, his. We longed to be close to each other, not just physically. He is still the only person outside of class I ever discussed, seriously not casual conversationally, Plato’s theory on the shadows and of course our never ending debates on religion.
It was too much, too unrelenting. Worse of all, it was not because I trusted him that I did not care to question. I was blind to all his faults. I forgave him for everything but I don’t think I’d ever forget. It’s a thorn in my side that I couldn’t look at him without feeling contempt for myself. I think I lost those feelings of euphoria for him a long time before I left him and he doesn’t know it. What I felt and what I feel now are lingering memories of what had been beautiful once.
True, he was there for me at some low points in my life, some of which were brought about by him and the fact that my family hated him and still hates him. We were young and we thought we were invincible. We thought love was everything. I loved him and he thought I’d change myself for him. I tried but I can’t change myself, even for him. Maybe we were growing up in different directions and he saw it coming, he tried to push me back to his path. I am still not the the kind of person he wants me to be, even in my now more conventional job I will never be the kind of person he hopes I will be.
I see his messages and I hate myself for responding. I can’t believe I let myself sink so low then, making myself into someone I am not. Even more for the ‘rebellion’ after, the smoking, the swearing and worse of all the abandon with which I dated other people.
I have been trying to forget, leading my new life with someone else. Yet he just calls and my walls come tumbling down. Leave me alone please. I want this relationship to work even with all the problems. I want him more then I you. I do love him more then you right now. I might not love him as I once loved you but I don’t love you anymore.
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I would have given you all of my heart
but there’s someone who’s torn it apart
and she’s taking almost all that I’ve got
but if you want, I’ll try to love again
baby I’ll try to love again but I know Continue reading

一場華麗而快樂的病

而愛情本來就是種考驗 當耗盡所有激情與好奇 上天給人們一些小甜蜜和一卡車難題

這就是人生?只有莫名其妙、沒有邏輯的偶像劇裡面的人才會那麼費力的談戀愛吧… 親愛的我累了,不只是因為距離,而是我對愛情沒有信心。 我可以相信一個人,但是我沒辦法相信人性。 Continue reading

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